in most cases, i love being on the brink. like when a storm is nearly in your backyard, or a weekend or vacation creeps up. or what about those minutes before a first date, fresh with flowers and possibility? it is the excitement and unknowing of what is to come, that big moment of rain or snow, or a surreal, relaxing moment you’ve been waiting for all year. the reward is close, and the patience pays off.

but there is also a brink that is uncomfortable, like graduating from college with no real plan, or when a relationship has gone as far as it can without either ending or beginning with the question, “will you marry me?” a brink that breeds nervousness or fear, or even doubt.

bryan and i have been sitting on this second brink for awhile now. the kind of brink where you’re ready to jump, but not everything is lined up. or the timing is right in most areas, but not the crucial one. and i’m reminded of God’s timing being the only timing we can rely on, and the only timing that makes sense in our lives.

or as someone put it at bible study, and the way i prefer to think of it: God is not a God of explanation, but He is a God of promises. He may not spell out for us why and how we got here, but He will promise to see us through to the next uncertainty. and tonight, that’s all i need to know.